Par for the course in my life, you say? Yeah yeah yeah.
There’s this idea that the more something is worth doing, the more difficult it is. That the universe makes you pay for what you want, in sweat and pain. The old idea of blood sacrifice: if you truly want something you have to sacrifice your life blood to it. Sacrifice, of course, derived partially from the word for blood, for you word whores out there.
The idea is that if you are trying to do something, the universe will throw obstacles in your path, to see if you can be distracted.
If you can be? Alas, you are unworthy.
I’m not sure I believe this. But I’m so close to finishing the Ruthless Revision. Within ten pages, I think. And every time I think I’m there something happens to stop me.
So Jeffe, you ask, why are you writing this blog post instead of those ten pages?
Because I’ve got to be at full power to wind everything up in the elegant way I envision and the meter is running low today.
After a few days in New Jersey and another day downtown working with new clients, I thought I was in striking distance of finishing. And then a big DC muckety-muck had to call a state muckety-muck and I had to be called in. All very exciting and now people are sending glowing emails about how admirable I am.
It’s great to have the career validation. It truly is. And I’m not just saying that because I know my boss reads this blog.
The invidious thing is, nobody asks if I’ve finished the book yet. At least, not because they need it and are anxiously waiting for me to deliver it.
I’m really the only one who cares that I haven’t.
I’ve talked about this before, haven’t I?
At any rate, Allison has had a crazy few days also, with an offer of a book contract and four agents now circling her juicy self. It’s a great problem to have, no doubt, but she’s overwhelmed, sorting details and doing her best to make the best decision, not just for now, but for her foreseeable career.
Which brings me back to something I’ve also said before, that the most rewarding part of writing really occurs between you and your work. That’s the most uncomplicated thrill. It’s intimate and lovely.
Maybe I’ll finish tomorrow and keep it a secret.